Purple Nails & Mommy Tales!

Happy Family

I can now say that things are starting to fall into place.  It's like you have to go through a huge emotional storm just to see the clearing ahead!  I've been learning a lot more about myself and about my family and about life and I'm starting to see what's important and what isn't.  I am so lucky to have friends and family that are there for me.  So thanks =)

I've been in a nesting mood lately.  I looked at out living/dining room and decided to move a few things around tonight!  Things look so much nicer and more spacious! I love the feeling I get after I clean something!  It's a peaceful proud feeling! 

Before

After

Such a sleepy baby

Kyle is doing really great!  He is just about 16 months now and he is trying to talk to us.  He can sometimes spit a word out but then doesn't say it again.  But today he was doing the Sign for "Love" which is how we tell him we love him.  He was trying to say the words today with the sign and he would look at us and giggle!  O boy this kid is the cutest thing I have ever seen!  

Me and my Babies

I painted my nails today! I haven't done that in what feels like years!  It's a purple color and I felt like it was perfect for the upcoming holidays! The weather here is starting to get colder and colder so its time to get the long sleeves and sweaters out! I love the cold weather!  Layering clothes is such a Me thing!

 I also started crafting a bunch! I almost finished Kyle's toy chest!  It used to be a dusty old wicker chest that had a real moldy smell to it... so I tore it a part... Joel helped me reinforce the frame and I did a lot of hot gluing and nailing!  All it needs is to have the rest of the brackets and things screwed in and I'm done!  It took a lot of work but it turned out great!  And so cute! 

Outside

Inside the chest!

Praying for the world

 Well the past few weeks have been fun and a bit rough.  The fun parts are easy to talk about!  Joel and I celebrated our 3 year Anniversary and Joel's 30th Birthday!  We went down to Tucson to visit Joel's family!  It was a nice time!

Before the couch!

We went thrift shopping and came home with a very comfy couch for 30 dollars and some sheets and pillow cases for only 6 dollars total.  So it was a good day!

After!

 For the past few days I've been going through this overwhelming emotion called sorrow.  It hit me all in one huge blow that.  It was like the outlook on our world and the the society that we call normal and okay... looking at how we can treat another human been in such a harsh way at times.  That Peace and Love are those mythical feeling/ emotions that almost seem impossible to achieve.  

If you don't know by now I am a Christian and I'm not ashamed by that at all.  I would never force my beliefs on anyone else but I believe that everyone no matter where you come from should always be seeking truth.  Seeking honesty.  But the one thing one should always carry is "Honest Doubt" a wise priest once told me that Honest Doubt is when you are seeking for answers but with an open heart.  Otherwise you could be standing right in front of the answers but be too think minded to try to understand and absorb it.

It's just hard seeing so much addiction in the world.  I assure you that I am no better but am saying this because I know what its like to have secrets but can feel too ashamed to talk about it.  I hear about friends, family, celebrities... overdosing on drugs, alcohol... And I just feel so compelled to help but for some reason I can't.  I try to make a difference... but it just doesn't work.  I'd just hate to hear someone close to me passed or was hurt and I didn't help.

 But I guess that's a lot of pressure to put on myself.  Joel finally knocked some sense into me and I calmed down.  He said the only thing we can do is Pray for those who need it.  =/ 

 But throughout these times of confusion I am so happy to have these boys in my life.  I know there is good in the world when I look at them... when I sign on my Facebook even and see all my friends and all the great things they achieved and things that they have succeeded at... it brings a smile to my face! 

Pinnical  Peak

 On a better note isn't this kid the cutest thing or what!?!