Praying for the world

 Well the past few weeks have been fun and a bit rough.  The fun parts are easy to talk about!  Joel and I celebrated our 3 year Anniversary and Joel's 30th Birthday!  We went down to Tucson to visit Joel's family!  It was a nice time!

Before the couch!

We went thrift shopping and came home with a very comfy couch for 30 dollars and some sheets and pillow cases for only 6 dollars total.  So it was a good day!

After!

 For the past few days I've been going through this overwhelming emotion called sorrow.  It hit me all in one huge blow that.  It was like the outlook on our world and the the society that we call normal and okay... looking at how we can treat another human been in such a harsh way at times.  That Peace and Love are those mythical feeling/ emotions that almost seem impossible to achieve.  

If you don't know by now I am a Christian and I'm not ashamed by that at all.  I would never force my beliefs on anyone else but I believe that everyone no matter where you come from should always be seeking truth.  Seeking honesty.  But the one thing one should always carry is "Honest Doubt" a wise priest once told me that Honest Doubt is when you are seeking for answers but with an open heart.  Otherwise you could be standing right in front of the answers but be too think minded to try to understand and absorb it.

It's just hard seeing so much addiction in the world.  I assure you that I am no better but am saying this because I know what its like to have secrets but can feel too ashamed to talk about it.  I hear about friends, family, celebrities... overdosing on drugs, alcohol... And I just feel so compelled to help but for some reason I can't.  I try to make a difference... but it just doesn't work.  I'd just hate to hear someone close to me passed or was hurt and I didn't help.

 But I guess that's a lot of pressure to put on myself.  Joel finally knocked some sense into me and I calmed down.  He said the only thing we can do is Pray for those who need it.  =/ 

 But throughout these times of confusion I am so happy to have these boys in my life.  I know there is good in the world when I look at them... when I sign on my Facebook even and see all my friends and all the great things they achieved and things that they have succeeded at... it brings a smile to my face! 

Pinnical  Peak

 On a better note isn't this kid the cutest thing or what!?!