8 weeks later...

Well its been 8 weeks since our little one has joined our family!  I'm so amazed at how much he has changed in such a short time.  He's now smiling, giggling, lifting his head, and making the cutest cooing noises! He sleeps very well at night and we have a pretty good schedule during the day.  It's safe to say that I've fallen in Love with this little babe! I still can't believe he's all mine. 

Baby and Mommy

We're so thankful that he's such a wonderful baby.  He's so calm and just want to hang out and look at things.  When he's hungry or tired he does get a little fussy but even then it isn't that bad.  Now that my health is improving I'm not able to do things around the house.  I finally feel normal!

Last Monday I got really frustrated cause I REALLY wanted to clean the house but every time I did Kyle would wake up or need my attention and Joel was working so I couldn't get anything done.  Thank goodness for Joel's Mom cause she babysat Kyle the next day while I scrubbed everything down.

All Smiles

In December we're going to be moving up to Payson for a year or two to be closer to my family and to get school done.  Every time we move I get antsy.  My past blogs I wrote about my moving experiences and how I wanted to pack everything and just leave... well that bug has come again.  We have 5 months and I want to pack our stuff now! LOL I'm Crazy!  We have SOOOO much stuff that I think we need to downsize a bit.  I love our stuff but it's true we do have way too much... and we really don't NEED it all.

Daddy & Son giggling

On Sunday we're leaving to Pinetop, AZ to a family reunion.  All of my Dad's side of the family is getting together and we're going to have fun.  Probably horseback ride, swim, hike, exercise, play games, eat, and make a movie!  Yup you read correctly a MOVIE!  Joel and I wrote up a script for a movie to film up in Pinetop!  So excited!  I hope we can get it done soon so I can't post it for everyone to see!  It's going to be amazing! =)

Well I should be sleeping cause Kyle is sleeping!  Til next time! Goodnight!

XOXO

Date Night Extravaganza

Today was a great day!  My husband woke me up saying I have a huge surprise for you today!  I asked him what it was and he said you'll find out later.  He then told me that he had to leave for a couple hours to get some work done but when he got home I had to have Kyle ready and I had to dress up nice!  So I ran in my closet and got on something cute and did my hair and makeup.  God Kyle all ready and waited for my Husband to get home!

All Gussy'd Up

So we when Joel finally got home we grabbed everything and started driving.  Along the way Joel tried to "pretend" that he had nothing planned.  And for a moment I actually started to believe him.  Then we arrived at my Sis-in law Ashley's place and Joel said this is where Kyle's destination is.  Lol so we dropped off Kyle and started driving again... I had no idea where we were.  Nothing looked familiar.  

 Then before I knew it we were at the Foothills Mall.  We parked right in front of the "Melting Pot"  Which is a fondue restaurant! We walked up to the doors... I was so excited cause I've always wanted to go there but never had... but the door was locked and there was a sign that said closed until 4:30 pm.  It was only 1:30pm. So I was a bit bummed and suggested we walked around the mall like zombies for the next 3 hours and Joel agreed. 

 We got inside the mall and Joel started leading the way.  I pointed at places I wanted to look in to pass the time but Joel said that we should go in a different direction first.  I had a gut instinct that something was up so I went along with it.  Then we found ourselves at the Mall Theaters! I thought 'How fun we can watch a movie!'  Before I could even think about what movie we should watch Joel said 'two tickets to the next Spider Man in 3D in the iMax please'... I was in utter shock!  I'd never seen a 3D movie in a IMax theater before!  So we watched the movie and it was Ahhh-Mazing! 

 Afterwards we went back to the melting pot and got a "4 course meal" lol Who does that?! A 4 course meal?! Seriously!  I felt like I was a celebrity for the day! The food was delicious!  And the dessert was even better!  It was scrumptious if I dare say! lol 

 After a full tummy and a happy attitude we drove started our drive back to reality.  I was a little bummed that our date had ended.  But I looked outside and the sky was full of thunderclouds which made the drive home gorgeous and COOL.  It was 80 degrees outside... it was nice!  Oh, Joel and I started to get annoyed with the gangster music being blasted at the intersection... so we decided to blast our Baby Einstein music as well.  And dance like the crazy fools we are!  And drive into humongous puddles of water... because it was fun! =P And that was my super awesome Date Night!

XOXO

Cleansing my Soul

I hadn't really realized how much of myself I was missing until about a week ago.  Idk if it was moving to AZ or maybe getting married really fast... or maybe when I had my miscarriage.. but when I look in the mirror I don't recognize the person starring back at me.

When I graduated from High School I was one spunky Chick!  Did random stuff, changed my look several times, wasn't afraid to be noticed.  But now I feel like I put up a wall between myself and the world.  I'm afraid to get back out there and to do something with my life... my fear of rejection has taken a hold of my life.  I hadn't done something crazy to my hair in a while so I think dying it Blondie was a huge eye opener for me.  I'm so glad I took the risk and just did it!  But my clothes are frumpy... I HATE being frumpy!  Even the word Frumpy is ugly!  I want to start finding clothes for my new figure.  I've come to terms that I'm not going to be a toothpick size anymore... my Mommy Curves are here to stay and I need to embrace it!

One other thing I need to change is: I need to put myself out there. Make friends, get a part time job, and just do something fun out of the house! I want to watch Romance movies and Dumb movies! I love being a Mom but I need to make sure I don't loose this person inside... if I do then I'll just be dead inside... I need to be awakened!  

Soaking Wet!

One of my crazy, random traditions every summer is to dance in the rain!  Idk why it is but I love doing it all he same.  So on the 4th of July it started pouring outside.. my husband opened the sliding door and said "Dance away!" So I did!  And I was in the Buff!  And it was AWESOME!  I got so soaked! It was so cold but somehow it cleansed me!  Like all the Dirt... sickness, sadness, loneliness, fear... it all washed away.. I saw what I was missing in my little life: Myself... the Real Me... the person who laughs and smiles ALL THE TIME!  Who loves to hear about all the drama although hates when its about herself... Just does stuff cause its fun... cares about everyone despite what they look like or what they've done.  A person full of LIFE!

So although it will be a challenge I'm ready to be that person again.  I'm just glad I have a wonderful support system.  My husband is always there for me, my friends and family are always looking out for me, and my Son is always there making me Smile in amazement of how lucky I am.

I love my Life... and its time to Show the World just THAT!

XOXO