On the mend

Day two of my recovery and it's still pretty tough.  Moving around has slightly gotten better but walking still feels like I'm a penguin.  Today I got to take off my big clean bandage off my tummy and got a closer look at my incision... then instantly after looking at it this wave of nausea came over me and I started to get really woozy... i walked over to my bed hoping it would go away when my head started to feel faint... I realized that my body was preparing to faint!!!  Thankfully Joel noticed and got me some water before I fell over and I laid down for a few hours and now I feel better.. it was just a weird feeling.  I've never had that overwhelming feeling before until now.

Other than that at the same time as my fiasco is going on Kyle is also going through a lot.  The poor guy has a cold and on top of that has 3 teeth coming in on top!  So he has been crying in pain for the past few days.  Which breaks my heart because I can barely hold him in my arms right now... I'm so sore that just having him in my lap hurts pretty bad.  Hopefully I'll heal faster and be able to be his Mommy again soon!

We're also a few days away from moving up to Payson and things seem to be moving smoothly enough that we'll be able to make it there with hardly any problems.

Well the good news overall is I now have a normal bellybutton!!!!!!!!!!!! Its been a while! lol

Umbilical Hernia Surgery

Well my surgery was probably one of the most bizarre things I have ever been a part of.  The whole process itself wasn't that bad... it actual was relaxing.. but also very very trippy!

I remember getting to the hospital and getting ready.  Sitting with Joel watching Dr. Who.  Then they wheeled me into the Pre-Surgical room where I had to say my goodbyes to Joel and get prepped with my IV and various tests and shots... that was probably one of the hardest moments only because Joel wasn't there and I was just sitting there freaking myself out.

Once my Doctor got there I was put at ease a lot more because he went through the whole procedure and what to expect afterwards and that everything will happen in a flash.  After watching and hearing about all those horror stories of patients waking up in the middle of the procedure I was a little worried that I would be one of those people lol.

So finally the anesthesiologist comes in and says okay we're ready for you.   And I get wheeled into the surgical room... and then my memory went blank...

...I remember wakings up freaking out... I felt like I was still waiting in a big room... like I dozed off for a couple minutes  I thought that my surgery was put off... maybe because I fell asleep?  Or the doctor had an emergency?  The nurse was there and I asked when I was going into surgery and she said I was done!? What?! Done??? How could I be done... I never even went in... wait if I went in I'd be in pain... I looked down at my tummy and everything seemed normal...except there was a band around my tummy... "What the heck!" "Who the heck put this there?"  I thought I was going crazy... I could not remember a thing...

Although I find myself  recalling random flashes of things that happened before I was sedated... I still don't know if they are real flashbacks or just ones I dreamed about... such a weird fuzzy feeling! LOL

Overall my surgery went smoothly.  I was out of there in a couple of hours after my surgery and I was back at home... last night was tough... I could not fall asleep... I was so tired... but I just couldn't get everything in me to fall asleep... and today has been horrible.  My abdomen just keeps getting sorer and sorer... and I can barely get myself in and out of bed, and a chair... laying down and standing are the only comfortable positions!
Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.  I just want to be able to hold Kyle again.  It's tough but it's what I got to do to better myself!

Chocolate Cheesecake with a Chocolate Crust!

 My first time making Chocolate Cheesecake!  And it was a success!  If you'd like to make this cheesecake here are the ingredients needed:

First you need to make the crust.  You can choose to either buy crust at the store or make your own.  I made my own it just tastes better to me.  

Ingredients:

• 1 1/2 cups of (Chocolate) graham cracker crust (Or Oreo like brand cookies could work too)
• 1/4    cup  of sugar
• 1/3    cup  of melted butter

Crush up graham crackers into small small bits... as you can tell I did not use a food processor because I didn't have one lol so instead a potato masher ad to take its place!  It worked!

Measure out your sugar

I poured the sugar and the crushed graham crackers in together then poured the melted butter on top.  Used my hands to mix it all together then with a spoon I smoothed the crust evenly.

Then just stick it in the fridge and let it chill while your making the Cheesecake or any other kind of pie/cake thing.

Ingredients for the Chocolate Cheesecake:

1 1/2 cups semisweet chocolate chips

1/2 cup granulated sugar

11 ounces cream cheese

1/4 cup butter or margarine, softened

2 cups frozen whipped topping, thawed

1 graham cracker crust, purchased or homemade

more whipped topping or whipped cream for topping

shaved milk chocolate, optional ( for topping)

Here are the instructions in advance just to prepare a lot easier!

Melt chocolate chips over low heat in saucepan or microwave, stirring frequently until smooth and melted. Set aside to cool. In large mixer bowl beat cream cheese, sugar and butter until smooth. On low speed blend in the melted chocolate. Fold in whipped topping until blended. Spoon cheese chocolate filling mixture into prepared graham cracker crust. Cover and chill until firm. Garnish with whipped topping and shaved chocolate, if desired.

Melt the Chocolate!!!

  

Sugar and butter all mixed in together.. 

 Pour it in a bowl with the cream cheese and whip it up until smooth.

Add in the melted chocolate chips a little at a time. 

Mix, mix, mix............. and MIX!!! 

Add in the cool whip one cup at a time!  

Mix some more!!! 

...and that part is done! 

Pour the mix into the now... chilled crust... with the spatula and spread evenly

I decided to decorate my Cheesecake with crushed up semi-sweet chocolate chips... you can also add some whip topping as well!  And don't forget the Cherry on top!

Hope this was helpful and delicious as it was for us!

Dirty Diaper Changing Time TOSS

Joel and I have this saying that we sometimes sing to Kyle when he has a dirty diaper.  Why do we sing it? I don't know lol maybe it's the sleep deprivation or maybe we a delirious or we just love to sing ridiculous songs to our bundle of Joy.. we just do!
So the other day Kyle woke up and Joel changed his diaper like normal... and then out of the blue I hear this giggling.  And to my surprise Joel was "TOSSING" the dirty Diaper and Kyle was Loving it!  It's safe to say that "Dirty Diaper Changing Time" is not just a song but a circus act as well!

Watch for yourself and please enjoy! =D

Xoxo

Having Faith

Well I'm officially in Limbo!  Since I've been more active lately my Umbilical Hernia started to close with my intestines still out and it hurts!  I actually forgot I had it because I didn't feel it until lately.  The other day I was in so much pain that I thought that I had a Kidney Stone.  Which thank goodness I didn't, but my Hernia is definitely not happy.   I visited with a Surgeon yesterday to see what he thought we should do and he said that my Hernia was too big to heal on its own.  That if I were to leave it untreated it could 1. Close up with my intestines still inside it and be in a LOT more pain, or 2.  if would keep growing to the size of a softball! YIKES!  I didn't want either to happen.  So we scheduled surgery for this coming Monday the 25th of Feb.

As scary as this all could've been I feel so blessed as well.  During this whole time where I rushed to the E.R., went to a family doctor, and scheduled my appointment with a surgeon I was scared that I would have to pay out of pocket with it all.  Just the E.R. visit alone would be thousands of dollars not to mention a surgery.  But even though I was terrified of all these upcoming money problems I started to pray.

I realized that I have a problem with having Faith in things, like in God, in my relationships, you name it... Some may call it worry, Fear of the unknown, unable to believe.  And because I knew this it somehow clicked during my worry about money and payments of 'how on earth I was going to pay for all of this'... I just tossed it aside as best as I could and prayed... and believed that God would help us take care of it somehow.  He'll never put us in a situation that we cannot handle.

Although I was still worried I did manage to calm myself to the point that I knew something good would happen.

Later that day when I met with the surgeon they said in order for them to schedule the appointment we need to pay for the surgery upfront.  Which I might say was about 2000 dollars.  So I gave them my old insurance card number (thinking it wouldn't work) just to see if it would go through and to my surprise it did.

I was shocked!  I had thought my insurance had expired.  I looked my insurance up online to make sure that it wasn't pulling my leg and to my surprise I was enrolled in a annual enrollment program the renews itself every time it expires!!!

I did not know this! I felt so relieved to hear from the doctors that my insurance covered all the costs!  OMGosh!  God is good.  I now know that this was a major step in my spiritual life.  God is showing me the right ways to believe in him and to have Faith that He will follow through when you need Him the most.  Glory to God.

Working Hard

Well today is day 3 of working out and eating somewhat better!  Joel and I are getting into our routine of working out in the mornings and BOY is it ever sore!  But I love that feeling!  That feeling of accomplishment that you're feeling the burn of something good.  I forgot how much I missed working out.  The pain, sweat, tears... it's all worth the feeling that you did something good for yourself!  Which settles my future for Payson... I'm going to join a gym!  Workout in the mornings and just have at it!

Joel is the sweetest husband.  The other day he looked at me and said that he was incredibly happy. I asked why he was so happy... he pulled me into his arms and said cause we're growing together Sweetie, and its a beautiful thing to be a part of. =) He can just melt my heart so easily sometimes!  

Oh so something new... Kyle has started to crawl!  He first started to do an army crawl and then figured out that he was strong enough to get onto his knees!  And now he is doing that cute rocking back and forth on his hands and knees!!!!!!! CUTE!!!!!!!! He has now started to say Mama More!!! Also, he is just so darn cute!  But he's getting too big..too fast!  

Things are sure looking up!  Lets hope all this good mojo stays with us!

Xoxo